Day 1 of ABC

Day 1 500cals or less
Intake
V.small bowl of unsweetened museli, skimmed milk: 150cal max
Muller Light: 85cals
Pepsi Max: 1cal
TOTAL: 236 cals

Obviously happy with that, staying in bed now and not moving so I can't eat anymore!
Just got back from the cinema, watched Twilight New Moon. . .LOVED it!! love Edward Cullen! mmm!! although Jacob has a hot body! But personally I'm a big fan of Edward!
Also have this slight attraction to Dr Carlisle Cullen!! think its cuz hes so damn nice etc!! haha xx

OMG!!!! the consequences of binging!

Totally my fault for being a greedy bint. . .I almost died on the scales just now!!

I can't believe it. . .116lbs!!! ARGH!!!!! fasting today cuz thats disgusting for me.

I'm still in actual shock. ABC starts today and thats totally pushed me on with it. Told myself I am completing ATLEAST 2 weeks!! need to be back to 7st 7 for xmas day!!

Crap, I'm actually gutted I'm 116, havn't been that for almost a year!!x

What a cock!

ARRRGGGGHHHH!!

the last 2 days I have been such a wankshaft its ridic!!
I can't even use serious words else I'll be on such a downer!
I'm not posting what I've eaten becuz quite frankly, its major embarrassing, fat and disgusting.
So I'm startin the ABC, last time I did this I only made it to day 6 but I lost 5lbs! so im determined to make it further this time!

I have a 'christmas meal' on weds though so thats major annoying! but im goin to fast tomorrow or tues so I can swap day 1/2 for day 3, if that makes sense.
So insted of, 500 or less, 500 or less, 300. I'll do sumit like fast, less than 500, less than 500. shouldn't make ne difference jus swapping intakes for 2 days or woteva.

So updating my side bar with my CW tomorrow morning, which im dreading!! and I start a proper abc diet 2moro. xx

Friday 27th!

After majorly binging last nyt, and in the early hours of the morning (on more cereal and cheese and crackers! eurgh! at 5am!?) I knew I had 2 fast 2day!

So Intake:
0 cals!!

HOWEVER!! it reaches 11.15pm?! I'm alone, bored and a bit hungry. Eat 2 lil microwave pizzas but left some (700cal) a big bowl of cereal (300cal) and 2 slice of toast covered in margarine (300cal) then a yoghurt (150cal) eurgh!!

Tried purging all I could do was the yoghurt, so I dunno what the hell thats about?!

So intake actually is 1,600cal!! *shoot me now* x

Weds and Thurs!

Woah, what a couple of days!. . .

Firstly, I successfully fasted yesterday, so no food or drink all day. Because I was going out with mates so knew I'd have to drink. I don't know how much I consumed in alcoholic calories, but I know it was less than 1,500 so I would of burnt then off during the day.

Then I got so drunk, I ended up on my own. (my friend got kicked out!) I had lost my purse, with all my money, bank cards, drivers license, and student ID etc!! and my phone!! so couldn't get anywhere or contact anyone.

And because I was visiting my mate, I didn't even know where I was?! So its not like I could of walked back or anything. I ended up in a police car, luckily they were well nice and took me back to my friends in the police car!! God knows how because I couldn't remember where she lived?!

Anyway then I got a parking ticket?!!? £50!!! ffs!!! really tops the day off!!

Then today I've been feeling so sick because I woke up still really drunk! The plus is I've barely ate anything? If thats even a plus!?

Today:
Half a soup: 80
Slice of bread: 120
Muller Light: 100
TOTAL: 300cals

And I feel ill again now so I'm done for the day, its 7pm anyway so that can be my dinner. xx

EDIT: EW!! i fucking binged on cereal, pasta, garlic bread, and chocolate!!! FUCKSAKE!! I am so fat!! purged some but not a big amount. ffs.

Tues 24th!

Realised I have to fast tomorrow because I'm going out drinking so will use my calories there and I train today so will burn off 200cals atleast. So today I've had:

Bowl of Cheerios (skimmed milk) 200cal
Muller light: 85cals
Clementine: 45cals?
TOTAL: 330 cals

I'm done for today now, not hungry. . .well I wasn't when I ate that stuff anyway, I was just bored. I'm so glad I didn't turn it into a binge though :-)

Fast tomorrow because I'm drinking at night, and Thurs can be another low cal day, under 400cals. xx

New Blog. . . .

Following a couple of you on this, going to start blogging daily in the hope it will keep me in check a little bit more!! Stuffs got waaay out of control again and it's really getting to me.

Here's a great example: TODAY!
In the library, trying to work, all I could think about was food, I ate:
Massive cheese salad baguette
Bag of Walkers Sensations
Giant Double Chocolate Muffin
Massive flapjack
Snickers
Went to the library toilets to purge, could barely get anything up, so I drank more water and some lilt.
Went different toilets to purge, got up more.

Came home, had a:
2 Satsumas
Chicken burger and chips
Bowl of cereal
Tub of ben and jerries
Whole family sized lemon loaf with cream
Whole terrys chocolate orange
2 bags of ready salted walkers

Purged in the toilet with the shower running. and here I am, in bed, feeling bloated and fat. fat. fat. fat.

so tomorrow is a new day, I'm aiming for a fast. I'll let you know how it goes! xx